Saturday, 4 July 2015

She - A journey.


She. She was a just born baby girl ,who looked really cute. She was scared to see new people around her. She was a precious little girl baby to her knowledge , just as everybody said so. She was taken to a new place called home. She knew this person called mommy and a person called daddy. She was the center of attraction and she kind of hated it. She used to cry out loud and make people go away except her mommy and daddy. She loved being taken care by mommy and enjoyed it when daddy lifted her up above his head to make her laugh. She slept on her mommy's hands or daddy's at times. She was trying to crawl around the place and kept seeing new faces almost everyday. they were uncles , aunties and grandpa and grandpa. For her , the list was just too long , she knew them to be visitors. She was happy. But then she always needed her mommy or daddy with her.Months passed and she grew up a little. Though she held her daddy's hand for support, She had learnt how to walk and also to sleep beside her mommy and had begun to call them names. She could identify her relatives a little better now. Well the time just didn't give her a break , she had grown a little more. Mommy and daddy had planned to send her to a new place called school. She was afraid, she thought she was being abandoned ,But then later realized it was just for a time period every day. It was just a place where she would learn new stuff and meet more new people. Everyday her daddy would drop her and pick her up from the place called school. She knew she was safe even there. She had met many new people and she called them friends and had learnt a lot of new stuff in that place. Years passed and she was nearing her teenage. She was a preteen for now. She was really excited about her teenage. Then she became a teen , a cute perfect teen. She had learnt how to make her decisions , yet preferred the clothes her mommy selected and still felt safe when daddy was around. Moments were turning into memories and in no time she neared the legalized age. She was fascinated by the restriction less age, She was excited about finally letting go of her daddy's hands and choosing her own dresses. She dreamed of it in the previous few years as She was a transforming into a woman soon. She had started enjoying the restriction free life as soon as she attained it. She no longer preferred house birthday parties. She has evolved into a perfect girl by now and had become more strong and stubborn. She started lying to her parents and giving them arrogant replies. She had begun to consider them as a burden. She didn't like being controlled or her so called secure now. She had joined college for her higher education.She was enjoying all the attention which, she once hated. As days went by she saw her parents fear for her ,Yet cared the least about them now. She had become selfish. She had fallen into the teenage love-trap and fallen out of it. Her book of memories was starting its 100th edition as she was about to become a woman now. She had started working , and was no more a teenager. She was a graceful woman. Her arrogance and selfishness had started to fade as her responsibilities increased. She could understand the fact that her parents were aging. Her mommy found her a guy , she got married. She accepted the fact that she wasn't one among the girls who married their childhood or teenage love. She was scared to leave her parents and get into a new family. She was more scared to begin her own family. Yet she managed to overcome every squabble and every fear she had. She had now become a complete woman. As months flew , She had a life growing within her. She then gave birth to a baby. Just liker her , just like her mommy. She had made her parents proud ,she had gifted her husband something precious, something that can never be replaced - A Daughter. She felt complete as a Wife. Time kept flowing like a river , and in no time she saw her daughter all grown up. She had seen her mommy and daddy grow old yet happy with their daughter. She had seen them rest peacefully in their grave. There were nights where she missed their presence and cried to sleep. But there were nights where she and her husband cuddled with their daughter. She saw her daughter repeating every single thing that she herself did to her mommy and daddy. She was hurt at times and realized how she had hurt her parents. She saw her daughter grow up into a teen , then a woman. She completed her responsibilities as a Mother. She was a proud Grandmother already, and then came the dark day. She saw people crying around her body. Her soul was alive. She wanted to live for few more years, but she knew her time had come. She saw her daughter wishing for an apology,  for her mistakes , just as she did when her mommy and daddy died. She was content , Her soul was happy.But Her journey just ended. Her soul joined her mommy and daddy again. And the cycle continued...
































































            The Cycle Of  Life Never Ends
                               

Love ,

Tinkerbell <3

















Thursday, 2 July 2015

The Three Faces.

Hey people! Sorry i haven't been posting on a scheduled basis or something , but then , here's my fourth blog :D I found this picture below , which is said to be a Japanese proverb. It seemed to disturb my usual crazy thoughts since it actually triggered my inner sense.


I just kept wondering , and that picture seemed to be really powerful. People do have different faces which they show when they are around different people or in different situations. Its not just you or me , but every single person on this planet has a " portray version " of their *self*. The face that we show to the world is the fake-st of all the three faces. We tend to *act* and portray our self in a false manner. Then comes the face that we show to our family , our kith and kin. This face is a faker version of who we are. It is a total different version when compared to the first , though it's partially who we are , it's still not the whole true depiction that we provide to others. Then comes this last type, which being the truest reflection of who we are , is who we really are. We never reveal this face to anybody , except the mirror at times , because , its one of our deepest and dark secrets. One more reason that keeps us holding this secret is the *fear*. The fear of judgmental hypocrites around us and the fear of what we might have to face if people actually get to know us. Some of you will disagree with all this but then deep inside , all of us know , we do go through this. We do try our best to overcome all the fears and reveal our true *self* yet sometimes , we fail. that is just because , the fear takes over everything that comes on our path to success. All of us do hide our emotions , behind all these three faces , be it sadness or happiness depending upon the instances. But then , sadness is the most hidden emotion as far as i know. According to me , it is totally okay to hide our truest face from everybody else , but then it is also wiser to let our demons out at times. That's the only way we will be able to understand others as well. Revealing our true selves can bring us haters or make people fall in love with us , so if you are ever going to succeed in letting your demons out , best of luck :) ;) 
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cheers 

tinkerbell <3